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Good Job, I'm ruined. - Entry Date: 28th May 2026
Well... I hope you're all happy. I'm genuinely ruined, and I fear it may be permanently.
Back in December of last year, I had ended up massively snapping during a
commission. I cancelled it and refunded them. You'd think that I could just get
it out of my
mind, and I'd be able to carry on as if nothing happened, right? Wrong. It's now
May of 2026, and I'm still REALLY struggling with everything art
related. Admittedly,
I was experiencing some slight issues beforehand, but I think this instance back
in December that really sent me over the edge.
Before I snapped, I (most of the time) was able to just happily sit down and
get some art done, and I enjoyed it. Now? Even me making art for myself is a
struggle.
The only times I've been able to pull myself together enough to get art done are
only via extreme art urges. There's been tones of art that I wanted to make for
friends, but I can't even bring myself to try.
With stories? It's just as bad. Before the snap, I used to write some 1000+ word stories for every artwork that I had made. I used to love doing it. Now? I can barely bring myself to open up my word processor, let alone even typing a single sentence.
I've tried everything, even a LOT of long breaks, but nothing. I still can't bring myself to do art for anyone, I still can barely bring myself to do art much, I still can't make stories anymore. I'm ruined. I want to fix myself. There's nowhere I can go.
If this is what you wanted, then congratulations, I'm fucked!